We all have them… or at least should have them.

Last year I wrote about one: Dakar.

Sure, I had a set-back with the whole leg breaking thing. There’s nothing I can do about that at this point. The river of time has flowed past that little meander.

I think I have to redouble my efforts though. Not just think about the goal in an abstract perspective. It’s easy to lose sight of where you really want to go. I know because in the past year I had many, many, distractions. Each of those made me lose focus on what I wanted to really do.

It’s hard to hold reality up to the harsh light though.

In looking around at where I am I’m forced to look at everything. Risks, rewards, the whole lot.

I’m not going to be an idiot about this and say that just because I so want to do something and work really hard I’ll make it to the end. No. I know I’m not made of money and this thing is going to require a small pile of cash to pull off. Risks will have to be taken. I’ll have to think of things like sponsorship. I need to build up enough cushion to take a month or two of a sabbatical.

Then there’s the other perspective. This is f*cking selfish. How is this making the world a better place?

I have to keep reminding myself that we, as a society, didn’t get to where we are by slavishly maintaining the status quo.