I moved here almost seven years ago.

In the intervening time the house I’m in has appreciated by nearly double. I’ve gotten a small pile of stock. Objectively I’ve done fucking amazing.

In the intervening time I just feel that I’ve been broken.

Between Seattle and Amazon I feel like I’ve not been able to catch a break. My house is wholly insufficient for either En’s or my needs. The politics of Seattle are insane. Amazon feels like it’s let me down.

In the seven years I feel like I’ve thrown away a large chunk of my productive life for what amounts to a pile of money.

And despite that pile of money, I’m just deeply unhappy.